Archive | October 2013

Time for Change

It’s fall and it finally feels like fall. The mornings are dark and chilly, I actually had to turn on the heat in my apartment last night, and of course the leaves are in glorious fall colors. So I was inspired for a bit of change for myself.

I’m naturally a brunette, in my early 20’s I started coloring my hair red because my daughter is a red-head and I got tired of constantly answering the questions of where she got the red hair. A couple of years ago I decided to stop coloring my hair, I mean it wasn’t necessary, I didn’t have any gray or white hairs to cover up. So I let my natural color shine back through and all the color grow out.

A couple months ago I started noticing a small patch of white hairs, not a couple of hairs here and there, an actually patch of white hairs right at my forehead. It’s been bugging me, so this past weekend I finally broken down and bought a pretty light auburn color. I figured there was no need to go full on red, just auburn so that I’d have more highlights and still keep my brown undertones. Oh boy was I wrong, for that matter the box was wrong.

Have you ever looked at a box of hair color in the store? Typically on the side or on the top they show what the starting hair colors is (like blonde, brown and black) and then what it will look like with the color added. The box lied. My hair is now similar to a candy apple red color. I’ve tried to take pictures to capture the color but so far I haven’t found the right lighting to do it justice as to how crazy this color is.

I could be really mad and upset and frankly devastated over the color, but instead I think I can rock this candy apple red color. I’m going with it. It’s almost Halloween, I’ll fit right in, right?

The funny thing is when I was in work last week my hair was dark brown, this week it’s candy apple red and not one person has said a thing to me about the color change. I have to laugh about this a little bit and wonder am I the topic of conversation around the water cooler or are they really that oblivious that they haven’t noticed? Either way, I’m still happy that I have a little bit of fall inspired change.

20 Years Blessed

20 years ago, I was given amazing news, that after a 4 month battle and being told repeatedly that I would not survive, I was not only going to survive but that my cancer was gone. Just vanished, leaving only scar tissue in it’s wake. I am so blessed to have had all these years even with the crazy side effects and complications that I’ve had since. Menopause at 28, blood clots, heart condition, it hasn’t been an easy road but I don’t regret a second of my journey.

I have an amazing daughter who has grown into an amazing woman. She got her first job just a couple of weeks ago and she’s showing incredible ambition and displaying her sense of responsibility. I’m so glad that I’ve been here these 20 years to witness her transition from typical teenager to extraordinary woman.

I’ve been able to realize that my brother isn’t just the annoying little boy, but has become one of my best friends too. My brother and I have 5 years between us. I’m older and as a little boy he just wanted to hang out with his big sister and frankly I couldn’t be bothered. As we have grown into adults, we’ve had life experiences that have helped us grown closer and become friends. I may not talk to him every day, but we don’t let a week go by without checking in on each other to make sure that we are ok.

My mom, my rock. She’s always been in that role and I don’t think that will ever change. We’ve been there for each other through break ups, heart ache, deaths of 2 amazing men (both of whom I was proud to think of as Dad) and ups and downs with health. Though she doesn’t live close by anymore, we still talk at least once a day.

My dad, he’s not one for showing emotion. At least with me he never has. We’re not close but I know that when I need him, he’s there for me. And that’s enough for me.

Over the years I’ve gotten to re-connect with some old friends and make some pretty amazing new ones. They’ve become like family to me. I don’t think that I would have been able to get through some of the rough times without them.

I’ve gone on to get 2 different degrees. Something that I didn’t think that I’d ever do. I really have accomplished quite a lot in these last 20 years. I can’t wait to see what I do in my next 20 …..